We often hear that absence makes the heart grow fonder. I am here to tell you that that is mostly a lie.
You've not missed me, nor my words. Not my work, nor my charming sense of humor. My absence from the lives of those around me barely resulted in them missing me, let alone, made their heart grow fonder.
However, during my upteenth absence from what some may call the blogosphere I have found that my heart has grown fonder for this. The moment when I sit and struggle to decipher my experiences and opinions to whomever may be reading. I find great comfort and joy in words and in writing them. For me, verbal communication is not often the best, but when writing I can convey my persona how I intend to in person.
All of that having been said, I guess I should actually blog.
I think today is a good day to play catch up. In the months since I've posted last I've fallen in and out of obsessions with people and things. I've ignored fashion and wallowed in my lack of success while still succeeding if you understand. If not, I'll explain. 2014 has brought me to the realization that I am not much of a fashion industry guy, not that I can't run with the best of them. SCRATCH all of that. I got my ass handed to me a few times and I was being a beta bitch wolf and licking my wounds for a year and venturing out slowly to try and accomplish goals. 2014 may have been the biggest waste of a year for me in how much work I've accomplished, but it's been great in other ways. I've done great things and met great people this year. I've realized that I'm not satisfied with what I've done and that just means I need to work harder and do more. I grew fonder for my goals in the fashion industry while being absent, but I also realized that I am not at all fond of the fashion industry.
I dislike the structure and rigor with which we are expected to work only to continue to struggle. I'm unhappy with where I haven't went, only because I know that I'm going. I'm unhappy with how much work I have to do, but I realize that I must work harder.
Then I realized that I just didn't like my approach to being in the industry. With all of that having been said, I now know that I will continue to work harder and adjust my approach to my goals. I could continue. But I don't know that I should. I should be working. This is only a portion of what I wanted to accomplish today.....
However the goal is to do it again next week, with a discussion in mind. I really liked my post "Thoughts On Art" and would like to return to that style of writing. Maybe I could end up being a legitimate fashion journalist. I recently read some work on an article by Cathy Horyn followed by the article (which is her return to fashion journalism) and I really think that I'd like to go that route. I like the idea of writing intellectual articles on fashion, but with a perspective like Horyn's. She's there to view and communicate her thoughts, not to appease. I'd like for that to be me.
Until next week. To whomever I am writing.
